If at first try you don’t succeed, then erase all evidence that you tried
that quote above is so funny that is why i put it on my first line today ;) i was in manado this morning, looking for an appropriate driving school. i need to get my driver license as soon as possible. and i found one who near by my home, and then i was thinking if i i could get driver license first i could learn later, lazy like a pig ^o^
i cant really recall my feeling this whole week, too complicated... id been through rough day, struggling with my own feeling. just for the record i am the one who cant think positive about anything, i called it self defense but for my friends it was waisting time. you know, like thinking about someone who doesnt even know you exist.
but i can tell you something, that this week i realized that someone who looks care doestn care like i thought. people said that friend in need is friend indeed. in this case i think i am... cant really write it down, part of my pessimistic brain i guess.....
Friends are people like me and you used to be.
YOU CHANGED majorly.
You covered your face with make-up, trying to look fake
it didnt work just made you look ugly
you changed your hair to make you look “prettier”
You changed to fit in to be popular
when you were my friend you didnt have to change
but you didnt want to be my friend anymore
you wanted to be someone else
So you ignored me, you were rude to me, you insulted me.
You think once you start talking to me again it will all be over!
You think wrong you will
NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER BE MY FRIEND AGAIN!!!
i think that poem suitable with my feeling right now, but i am not that rude. even if they did exactly like that i will never say you wont be my friend again, but i just cant treat you like i used to ;)
anything could happen unexpected... nothing is impossible, i think im gonna get used with that line ;)
this morning something really unexpected happen, cant recall here becoz i dun wanna dream too much hehehe so i just hoping everything going well until i get what i want. my dad didnt force me to do this adsense thing, but i still do it thou. i just wanna make him see that im doing something hihihi
i just came back home after accompanied bryant with his supper, and of course id supper too which is why im having problem losing weight. but i like what i look like now. not much not less, i hope you understand what i mean ;)
i watched infotainment this morning, and i saw news about young female actress trapped with those drugs thing. i dont have idea how could somebody doing something that she or he knows not the right thing to do. i hope im not one whom has those kind of curiosity which make me do something ill regret for all my life....
It’s not cheating unless you get caught.
once and again my dad force me to do the adsense thing, freakin tired becoz he keep nagging me T.T i just wanna do things i want to do. not what my dad want me to do. but i owed him all my life. so i decided to do that. nothing to lose thou....
today i woke up around 10am bcoz phx calling. she was at tondano by the time. ask me to go to Lokon, but i still feel sleepy. i told her to come by there at noon... but i didn tell her i still sleep when she called me hehehe
we went there around 2pm, the kids practiced for marching band. i miss the time when i still part of the team. i love that time. to many memories hihihihi....
after that bryant fetched me home. we have some nasty crazy conversation with winner before both of them left hehehe. lidut calls us to go clubbing. i think i will go since nothing to do here and i bored hear my dad nagging all the time.
its 11pm and i dont know what else to write so i think ill continue tomorrow ;)
some pictures from the sexy day out =D
sexy part 1
sexy part 2
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
